Saturday, 20 September 2008

Marionette's Mute Musings have moved!

well, we've moved.

to http://djoker.ragnarokrp.com/blog


See you around!

Thursday, 11 September 2008

We will always be different generation, a different group.

The people in UNIX pointed out a good point:

"We are different from the rest of the world".

I concur. Even though I'm not a UNIX user. Far from it.

But here's another parallel point I want to point out. We (as in the certain people who I associate with) are different from the rest of the world. It is not that we're are unique, it is not that we're blessed with different powers and blessings from the Almighty, it is not that we're just way different physically that sets us worlds apart from everyone.

It is the fact that we chose to be with everyone, and that makes a whole lot difference between who our group is and who are the other groups.

You know who you are. I'm not posting a warning shot. Far from it. I'm drawing a line. Do not put us on the same level as yours. Even if yours seems to be better, or worse. We are never the same like yours. We didn't arrive here to this point because we were directed to this point. We arrived here to this point because we were guided by intuition and the fervour to seek truth with our own eyes, and walk the steps with our own two foot. That alone, marks our difference.

We have been walking this path for years, for ages, for aeons. It was within us, subconsciously. It was within us, within our intuition, within our upbringing, within our ideals, within our minds. We knew what we wanted to do, and we're working on it. And we're still walking on that path, breathing that same air, reveling in the same breeze.

We're not like you. You're just seasonal. You're just here when it is at its full glory. You take the easy steps. We did the foundation, you take the glory. So be it, as if we care. But when you start to say that you people found this first, found-this-first-my-foot-and-my-ass. I'll tell you straight like that. People from my group are lenient, but that does not mean I am lenient too. When things go off you run off. And again we have to pick up the scraps of where you left off. Worse still, we have to start all the way from the beginning. No thanks to you and the likes of your, or those in kin of the likes of you.

Because we aren't seasonal. The only part that is seasonal about us is how large is the scale. On a global scale, on a community scale, or an individual scale. We're not concerned with numbers. We're not concerned with organizational trivialities. We're here for the benefit of humanity. We are here as a platform of arbitration of thoughts. We are here to provide the room and avenue for discourse. And when we do it big, we do it really big. And we don't stop the ball from snowballing. We make sure it keeps rolling. And rolling, and rolling, in any direction it chooses to go.

WE ARE A COLLOQUIUM of minds and thoughts. We do not provide answers. We merely help. That is our imperative. What others choose to take and to uphold is theirs. But don't take credit nor give credit where it is undue. We don't claim it for ourselves. We don't deserve such tenderly thoughts. We're here, however, ready to share it.

We may be of the same generation, but we're ultimately different. And we're different from you people who jumps the ship and port when things go popular. We're here, thick or thin.

Because we're different, and unique. No, you don't have to make do pretending you're different on your own. We didn't need or want to be different. You yourself will have to stop being different. We're just indifferent between the thoughts of different or indifferent. It makes no difference to us.

Tuesday, 9 September 2008

Numbers, anyone?

There was a point raised in a discussion about the usage of technology.

Ever since the handphones were released for the masses, people can never deny two things:

1) handphone is a part of communication tool
2) internet is also a path to develop our views on the world.

I remember before I got my handphone in the year 2002, I was able to recall more than 30 phone numbers, whichever numbers they may be. The school, the home, friend a, friend b, tuition teacher a, tuition teacher b, classmate a, b, c, outlet a, b, c, etc.

When I had my first Alcatel EZTouchDB, I kept all some into the phone, some into the SIM card.

Now, the only two numbers that I remember are my house number, and my previous house number.

Even if you tell me off the number of another person, I can't retain it at all. I will have to rely on my phone to record that number. Hmm.

Sunday, 7 September 2008

change update

change update: the music player

finally, somehow it showed up right on Google Chrome. I hope this works on IE and Firefox too.

Now you can adjust the volume of the music, and even stop the music if you don't want to hear it. I hope the code works out right. If it does not, you're free to drop a comment.

By the way, its one of the music from Xenogears. I have yet to find a replacement music, although I find this music nostalgic.

Well then, see you all later! Adios!

Friday, 5 September 2008

Listed at "A million Blog List"

Hi guys, I'm just making a quick post. Seems I stumbled upon "A million blog list" project. The aim is to see how long does it take to list up 1 million blogs. Yes, you're right. 1 million in numbers. If you've got a blog, you ought to try list yourself into the list. I mean, why not? Go and have your blog listed!

Well, see you folks around!

Thursday, 4 September 2008

changing some layout

Heave ho, heavy ho.

I know that I haven't been updating. To some folks, you know that I'm posting some other things somewhere, but clearly its time to change some of the layout (although Facebook users will still get a copy of the blog post in a form of a note, irregardless) to just get a fresh breather.

Well, I think it will be an ongoing process until I am satisfied. Some things will be half cooked, some things will be half done. But if you feel that there is a glaring need to point something out, as usual you're free to point it out. Okay? Well, I'll post some other things when I get around to.

Wednesday, 27 August 2008

A look into the so called name identity

Hi there, everyone.

I know that I've been unfaithful by not posting anything. In fact I have so many things that I want to post about, but I have not been able to. Guess I am lazy.

But what I'm going to post may be controversial. Here's what.

I suggest, for the sake of unity, Malaysians should rename themselves, follow the nationalistic approach of Thailand and Indonesia.

Heck, I don't mind if i can retain the word "Badi" in my name. "Hang Badi, Hang Jambul" or whatever. As long as the names are standardized.

Now, I am going to break some rules of blogging. I don't mean to, but I want to put the message across. And this is how I do it.

Anyways, here's the thing. 50 years of nationhood, and I'm a second generation Malaysian. Spesifically, of the chinese ethnic. Now, I think I once posted that there's something to be proud of being a Malaysian. No, its not about a countryman of mine going around earth's orbits or the even recent one about winning a silver medal in the Beijing Olympics for male's singles badminton (God dammit, we want the Thomas Cup!), or any of that sort. Its the passport. Noticeably, the most advanced passport in the entire earth. Heck, that's something to be proud of.

However, there's also something about the passport that irks me and many other people. You see, I hold a Malaysian passport. When I go to Singapore, I am called a Malaysian. When I go to any parts of the world, despite the fact that I have a similar skin tone to those of banana fruits (its an insider racist joke, folks) I am still called a Malaysian.

Heck, that's part 1.

Now, here's part 1 extended. A Malaysian friend of mine, of chinese ethnicity, "returned" to China. Why did I use "return" instead of 'visit'? That's because many chinese in Malaysia still thinks that China is their motherland. Irregardless of their generation. The term 'many' may be questionable, but it is still a sizable group of humans in a piece of land called Malaysia, who are somehow yellow skinned (or kins to yellow skinned people)and thinks that way too. Now here's the situation. He went back, and proudly proclaimed "I'm back to visit my motherland".

He turned a few chinese heads. And at one point, he got an answer "You're just a fucking Malaysian". End of story.

He 'came down' back to Malaysia. And the people called him "you're a Chinese!". Look at the nouns.End of story.


Heck, what's the point of upholding the name "Yee Tzyypirng" if my 'fucking' grandmotherland (since it ain't my motherland anyway) refuses to even recognize me as part of hers? No, i'm not insulting the Chinese nationality, and neither am I insulting Malaysian chinese, but hear me out on this one before you guys start to comment.

For years and generations the Malaysian chinese have argued that we ought to keep our names because it represents who we are. Culture, heritage, traditions. I say its all a lost game. Do you see Malaysian chinese kids running around greeting their elders with a bow? Do you see the young Malaysian chinese pausing in their steps to allow the elderly cross before them?

Heck, the point here I'm trying to put forth is that, we young Malaysians have our own culture, tradition and values that we uphold. Irregardless what race we are. But if we insist on being 'a part of a another group', please for the sake of upholding the argument, check the reality. I only think that the only 'real chinese' are people of Taiwan and people of Hong Kong. And when I meant by this, I meant the Han Chinese (not including the minor ethnic chinese of other chinese 'sub-race' [again the use of sub race is arguable]) (I hope this isn't a derogatory term for them). And I mean as in how they live, how they think, how they act, and how they presents themselves.

Those are the real 'fucking chinese'. Malaysians are just fucking Malaysians. You can try hard to be a chinese, but in the end you're just another 'ngoi chut yan' (outsider) to them. Now you can understand my angst. Because I think its time to really think forth and speak for ourselves where do we stand.

Change the name. Check. But does that mean we erode our rights to practice what we believe in? Definitely not! It's not like we can't celebrate the Chinese Lunar New Year, or have Dragon dance or Lion Dance thrown in to it. Even 'gwai lous' are doing lion dance in Australian chinatowns. It doesn't mean that because we give up our names, we give up our rights to live as we chose to.

I know many chinese are going up to be upset with what I've said. Some will call it substant-less, some will call it derogatory. Some will call me a traitor to the race.

But I put forth my opinions, and stand by with it. Because in any part of the world, I am just another Malaysian. And not a fucking Malaysian chinese. Because I'm quite fed up with racist elements in people around me. And I'm trying to propose a way to tackle the issue in the roots.

We should have changed our names 50 years ago.

And no, I don't know how the Indians and other natives of Malaysia think. I put this argument forth for West Malaysia situation. Sabah and Sarawak are alright in their way. That's why we have 'Sino's running around. They are Sabahans and Sarawakians in their own right.

Friday, 1 August 2008

On ICT, Teaching and Technology

A few years back down the memory lane, let's see... I was in Form 1. That would be year 1998.



I started having my own hotmail address. It was "hyperyouth@hotmail.com". It died after a year, due to inactiveness (I forgot to login). Then I had a new one, hyperyouth_firepower@hotmail.com. It was due to attributed to "Team Hyperyouth Syndicate". Then I started MIRC. And moved on to the most popular IM at that time, ICQ by Miranda. Little by little, I went on to Napster, and I went on to many other programs the beatiful World Wide Web had to offer.

The very first online MMORPG (Massive Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game) that I tried was Utopia by SwerveGames. It still lives today. I play World of Warcraft now.



All of that in the year 1998. Imagine my joy of being an adolescent who was bestowed with these knowledge of the internet. Search engines were rudimentary, crude and direct to the point (look at Yahoo!) that it was basic, and no frills. To know a site search engine, it was like "godsent". To know the methods of searching through a search engine was to be an 'information angel'. You hoard the knowledge that you seek, and for once, you feel like you're ahead of your peers and time.



Until you suddenly realize, that the world wide web just made you look like a fool. But it was fun. I was able to get EVERYTHING (or almost) that I wanted to know.



While all these wonders took place, the only teacher that I knew that could rival my prowess and ability to use ICT was my father. Mr Yee Wai Chiong. He was the first of the 'non-malay' batch that entered UPSI. He was the first of the 'non-malay' batch that took up ICT (it was actually offered to him, really) in Education. And he graduated at late 1998. But that's not the point. Imagine his horror and surprise when he finds out that his own son was able to rival his abilities in using / implementing ICT, with exception of 3 programs (Database[the old DOS version], Adobe Photoshop and HTML programming). He still maintains that 'skill edge' in these 3 programs, but when it comes to broader application, I win. Hands down.



Now, at this moment, the situation is replicated, but not entirely. I am an English about-to-be teacher, and kids in schools (its a common thing to call even 17 year olds as 'kids') are going to be as good as I am, or even better. I am outclassed in almost all basics. Image / Video / Media manipulation, CSS, HTML, Java, C++ and various other programming language, the knowledge of hardware, the knowledge and practical application of hardwares and softwares, etc. And the same anxiety that befell my father 10 years ago is now replicated in me. Am I "up to date" enough to convince the kids that I'm relevant to their education? (Or at least able to provide a sufficent, useful / meaningful input) Am I in a position to guide, fascilitate and assist their learning should they wish to adopt the usage of ICT tools and skills? Am I only going to be an insult to their intelligence?



Today business web standards are on web2.0 standards. Whereas in communications we're already way past 3G, going into 4G (and nations advanced as Korea and Japan are already gearing up for 5G), and it will be ongoing, not waiting to stop. Amazing future lies ahead. Take a breather, grab all you can, move on. Take a step.



When my old man studied ICT in Education back in 1998, to the teaching community it was a marvel, an unwarranted future. A risk. Today, the very same level of understanding of ICT (compared as for these 10 years) would be "rudimentary", "crude" and "fundamentally out of date". Today, it (refers to the ICT in general) is a generic skill that every individual who proclaims to be a teacher is a 'must have'. Without it, one is a fail. I do not intend to fail my students. Not as of now, not as of 20 years later. I intend to keep up, and I intend to stay 'in tune'.



Welcome to the reality of ICT.

If it seems like its too late, the ever golden proverb proves otherwise. "It is always never too late". Happy reading, and happy looking forward on the fun side of ICT.



Mucha Gracias.

Tuesday, 15 July 2008

I need my internet!

Today, we had no wireless internet. I am absolutely frustated. I rely on internet. The real issue? DiGi haven't rolled out their 3G. Wait, you're telling me to jump the wagon and hop on Maxis or Celcom? No, no, no... I am not that desperate to enjoy HSDPA. Of course, I want a low latency, high speed, uninterrupted, unfiltered * cough*torrent*cough* connections with no filters and intrusion of privacy. I want a connection that I can be proud of whenever I speak of it, and whenever I use it.

DiGi has always somehow managed to tailor their products and services to my appeal. Back then when 384kbps / 512 kbps broadband were the hype / rage of the day (that was way back in 2003/2004) I took up DiGi EDGE because Celcom didn't have anything of that sort, and Telekom were completely hopeless with their own wireless based landline broadband (it wasn’t even available in Kota Kinabalu back then!) It was not long enough until DiGi actually had a better offering than Celcom in terms of all in one package. Better call rates, better SMS rates, better packaging, everything. It was evident that I soon dumped Celcom in favour of DiGi. Well, I have been a ‘faithful’ DiGi user up to now, and I don’t really see a reason why should I change or add another telco (even though I am tempted to buy another new phone from time to time).

Yes, like many other DiGi customers and mobility broadband enthusiast, I am quite upset at DiGi’s “failure” to obtain a 3G license. Some says it may be a rigged ‘competition’, I don’t know. I won’t go as far to support that claim, but neither will debunk it. I mean, come on… DiGi being one of the largest telco companies in Malaysia would lose its 3G bid to Time Dot Com and MiTV, just because Telenor (the Norwegian supercompany in the telecommunications industry) held a 51% controlling stake in DiGi. I blame the minister of Energy & Communication at that time. But let’s not dwell into that, shall we?

So DiGi loses out on a 3G deal. Big deal. Yeah right. But life goes on. I still need a mobile internet, and like others I was tempted to hop on the Celcom / Maxis bandwagon. However, something made me laughed real hard at Celcom and Maxis at that time. Till now they haven’t ‘fix’ the 3G coverage, let alone the bandwidth allocated. One base station, affirmatively can only manage up to 10 users at one time. So users who were expecting a full HSDPA (3.5G) would be really disappointed because in really congested “peak time”, there would only be 10 HSDPA users, and the others would be kicked to a mere EDGE connection. Now, the real reason why people can’t get UTMS connection when there are others hogging on HSDPA connection is that HSDPA and UTMS equipment share the same hardware, but the only difference is the software coding. (Source: Mobileworld Malaysia 2005). So 10 lucky users get to using HSDPA, and the others will be running with EDGE / GPRS (if they really have EDGE)

So here was what was happening back then. DiGi were rolling out EDGE on virtually every base station that they can reach (yes, even the most interior of places, the most ‘ulu’ of places were getting EDGE connection!), and they hit fast, and they hit hard. Notably, at that time, EDGE did had an edge over UTMS connection in terms of data packet handling and also stability. Hey, it runs on GSM connection, so expect the fullest out of it! Constant fine tuning were done to EDGE, while Maxis and Celcom were desperately trying to outdo each other on the ‘nifty’ 3G market. Of course, the market take-up is low. Very low. And then a snag happened. It seems that since both telcos only got the license without the equipment, and there were lots of bugs that needed fixing. Maxis went ahead and installed 3G stations in Klang Valley (with exception of ‘The Round Table’ (the area that encircles KLCC Petronas Twin Towers) and Celcom were hastily trying to conquer the less illustrious but equally rewarding Johor Bahru area. DiGi were then still very, very comfortable with their EDGE offering

Sunday, 13 July 2008

To Specialization

So here am I typing this out again (for the umpteenth time) on a personal notebook. I can't seem to access the Wi-Fi hotspot access in my hostel (maybe the administration should do something to alleviate the situation) because it seems that i'm out of range, even though I am indoors. Perhaps the walls, I don't know. I'm suspecting somehow the angle and the thickness of the walls actually presents itself as a form of signal inteference. If I could, I would like to make a self made coil (to strengthen the signal), but so far so good I have not been able to identify any good electronics shop anywhere in Larkin, Johor.

Speaking about Larkin, the theme today I would like to write more about specialization. You see, I have already been here for a week, but I have yet to find a decent laundrette here in Larkin. Erm, yes, the institution does have coin laundry machines but I don't use them because of one main reason: I find it more of a hassle to find the coins, grab a soap, determine which pair of clothes goes in first, which goes second, which goes together, which doesn't, etc and the entire process goes on, all the way to the “fold and store” stage. One can say I'm lazy, but I can live up with that tag if I have to; I just save lots of time and effort in which I can do something else.

So here's the deal about “specializing”. The government trains me, teaches me then proceeds on to offer me a 5 year contract to teach, train and tutor the future generation of the Malaysian population. By now you should have known (or guess intelligently) that I'm a teacher in training. So, it happens that I'm specilized in B.ed(TESL) or so my degree says, and I'm contracted to educate the general student populace on how to be proficient in English (in all aspects of it). Here's to note that there are other teachers as well, and they are specialized in different subjects. Thus far the question would be; can I deviate, and to what extent can I deviate?

Look no further for the answer. I can, and if I have to I will. No, I don't mean that I do have the capabilities to deviate, (just like my old man who I think he's a super teacher that can teach any subjects with the knowledge accessible right on his fingertips) but the needs of the situation may force the school administration to consider some form of deviation. For example, an English teacher to coach a futsal team (with little or very minimal knowledge about the game and the finer aspects to it).

On the other hand, let's look at this. I am hereby contracted to educate, to teach, and to enlighten the younger, innocent (yeah right) populace on English Language. And every aspect of it. That is because I am supposed to be the “expert”, or the “specialist” in that field. (English, my friend, English!) So while my colleagues who teaches science will come running after me asking “what's the matter”, I will be in turn bugging him / her (that poor soul) with the question “what's a matter”. That is specialization. We consult, we refer to those who are the specialist in the arena.

Well, lets take the idea of of “specialization” to a higher / deeper level here. Here's another situation. Now, as the government gives me the contract to educate the populace, I am compesated with imbues and allowances. They range from “life management allowances” to “home financing allowances”. Yes, the government of Malaysia is very generous. Unfortunately the cost of living is high, so don't fret. Its only an allowance. That is if you work for the government (I'm only a trainee, and therefore not eligible to apply for all these nifty things), my friend. Now, I have an issue. I need someone to take care of my food (because I can't be bothered to cook, and I can't really cook good food), and at the same time I need to look after my laundry. So, technically, here's how I do both; I sub-contract them. It is really simple. I give a lum sum to a diners to take care of my food, and I (am still trying to find one) fund a laundrette shop to take care of my laundries. So what I need to do is just go to the said premise, do what I have to do (whether I pick up, or dine in, or drop / pick up my laundry) and let the people who 'specialize' in their fields to do it for me. Solid idea, no? Even I am not an IT technical expert myself ( I am somewhat limited unlike many others on the general IT-literate populace out there), but I can take in a few sub-con jobs *cough* translation, editing *cough*. So yes, what I wrote here can be scorned at, because I may be giving the impression that I'm leading everyone “off to Holland” (its a Malaysian Chinese saying, that means to deviate way off course) in this post, but here's something that I would like to ask;

1)Who 'contracts' or 'subcontracts' you, and do you find yourself bridled in one single task?
2)The idea of giving someone to do something. Do you actually hire people to do it? Laundry, lawn cleaning, pipe repairs, etc.
3)How do you view yourself as a 'specialist' (if you see yourself that way?)

And dang, my laundry's just finished spinning. Now I have to hunt for clips and a place to dry them (not to mention to watch over them as people DO steal clothes nowadays) under the sun. Wait, the sky's dim. Ah, crap. I should have just sent it to the laundrette. Save my time and my effort.* Sigh! *

Friday, 30 May 2008

A quote owned, borrowed or adapted?

There was an interesting incident over the cyber cafe today. Yes, I am at the cyber cafes because I can't get a decent connection in the house I am in. Too many Xunlei clients hogging a 1mb connection (if I count correctly, there are supposed to be 3) without any QoS split in the broadband router makes me an unhappy human being.

So what happened? A friend asked me to use Zoosk. So it happened that it was some sort of a networking tool that can be added as an application in your Facebook(tm) account. Pretty nifty fort those in need of finding a social network of the opposite sex, but not exactly my type as I'm not the very approaching type.

But here's a question that struck me. "Write a quote", or "Write a story". Where do you begin? Where do you end? What do you reply when people ask you "describe yourself?" How do you know if your answer is what they seek, yet at the same time successfully describe yourself?

It struck me that we have many ways of approaching this question from different angles and meeting a different criteria. In interviews, its different. In common 1st time encounter, its also different. So what do you do? How will you do?

I did nothing. I just hoped that I will get to know them better over time, and let them get to know me better over time too. Pretty dull for many if one may insist, but that's me.

So, do you borrow a quote, make your own, or adapt a quote to "quip" it as yours?

That question left me hanging for a moment when I wanted to try to make an approach towards a girl whom I wanted to know her more today. Oh, she's my superior from the finance department (but we didn't meet today because she fell ill. I hope she gets well soon.) during my 9 day tenure as a Mark's & Spencer staff (I work for their stock take event).

Funny, because I restrained myself. Because lack of confidence.

I wish you people out there to have more guts. Best of luck to you, and me, and everyone.

Nights!

Wednesday, 28 May 2008

Facebook account as a front

Hello everyone. I'm not posting this because I'm bored, neither am I posting just to spam post so that my blog looks livelier.

It doesn't matter. But here's something interesting I've noted about my Facebook account.

Right now, its a place where everyone spams "i love you', 'I miss you', etc. And I delete them, cordially without returning them.

Does that make me a jerk? Maybe.

Does that make me an ungrateful person? Maybe.

Does that make me an ugly person (characteristic wise)? Maybe.

On one side, I don't mind my friends or colleagues never leaving a real note. When I mean a real note, I mean something that has a slight personal touch in it. A picture is a picture, a pictar is a pictar. If you don't get what I mean, all I mean to say is that a picture that you send me is a picture, while a picture that you copy-paste from somewhere else will remain as a "picture that you copy-paste from somewhere else" and send me. It is that simple.

I don't mean that you shouldn't send me pictures, drawings or greeting card. However, a personal message included in it means something personal to me. I am a sentimental person, after all. I work, live and play with emotions attached.

oh well. You can reach me at hyperyouth_firepower [at]hotmail[dot]com for my facebook account. Hope to meet you there.

Stock take counts

Hello everyone. Its been a long time.

Let me update what has happened.

I've moved place. Let's see.. I'm now over at SS2, Petaling Jaya with my cousin. I'm going to move back to Johor later at July.

I'm also working for Marks & Spencer. As a stock taker. Here's some interesting insight.

I've managed to find myself a part time job as a stock taker in Mark's & Spencer. It is really a refreshing experience (even though the work can be boring). I've met many kinds of people, and I've worked hard enough to survive for the rest of the month (and god willing, for June either).

Stock taking is basically making a count check on your stocks, to see if the items that you have in inventory tallies with the one that you have physically or not. Different companies uses a different system to perform their stock takes, but as for now, I will not divulge anything. Let me put it in this way, just to give an idea (what is allowed).

I have worked in many places related to Mark's & Spencers.
I have worked in 3 retail outlets, with 1 more coming up (if the working agency gets it).
I have an idea how Mark's & Spencer will move in its merchandizing directions.
I have come to understood how Mark's & Spencers (Malaysia) works and operates at operational level.
I have also had the opportunity to work for Mark's & Spencers (Malaysia) and DHL (you know which one you are) and experience first hand how their day to day operations take place.

On the bright side, I have gained my employer's trust and eye to see that I'm a qualified and dedicated staff. Although it has only been a week, Mark's & Spencers have already placed their trust in me equivalent of a insider staff worker (as in like a permanent staff).

I thank Arubaito Mukuya for introducing this job to me.


And as you may have it, I've met many interesting people. I cross my fingers in hope that I can continue to continue a certain professional relationship with these people in future.

It was fun, even if that was just part time job.

Friday, 11 April 2008

I went MIA + AWOL, but ain't it Wongey there?

Hello and Allah'u'Abha,

It has been a long time.

Some people may wonder if I had stopped writing alltogether. The answer is no. I couldn't shift the priorities and shuffle the tasks fast and efficient enough. Research papers, assignments. Every passing semesters only seeks to bring more and more workload, and I'm feeling the pressure.

http://yeetzyypirng2.blogspot.com

Go to here. This was my internet blogging assignment. You should see that the my style doesn't stray too far. Sorry for not copy-pasting here. I don't think its good.

However, it is really a bad attempt trying to look into things (especially issues pertaining selecting, choosing and teaching literature materials in classroom) with depth and maturity. The real issue with me is that I don't see what is maturity, what is depth. I need to develop these two qualities, and I will certainly be delighted in people giving advices. But I think that's about it.

Oh, speaking about advices, meet my good friend; Matthew Wong.
http://mattaiwong.blogspot.com/

I knew him since I was in Form 4 (I think that is Grade 9/10 I think for the US standards. Someone please enlighten me about it). So he's open up a blog; it talks about how he deals with Christianity. Please pay him a visit, drop a word if you wish to. He will be happy.

You can see what kind of character he is by peering into his writing. Unfortunately, the truth may be concealed as to how his mind works, because people will have some form of self-consciousness when they write in online, public blogs. Likewise, I am the same. But allow me to weave a string a words.

Matthew Wong. He is a devout Christian. And still is. His character has developed much spiritual depth. What I mean to see is that he has begin to harness his ability as a "spiritual radar" and detect people. He isn't an Inquisitor-like character, far from it. He does not bother himself with trvilialities. Every time I meet him; he changes. He evolves, he changes. He is like a book, with many sub chapters, hyperlinks, and the more you read about him (or technically, the more you know him) the more there is to him that yet remains undiscovered / unknown to you. But I know his basic self. He is, after all, a meek, kind soul.

I call him Wongey. I know he won't like it when I say it out here, but I can't help it. It isn't his pet name, you see. But I have the tendency to call him that. You, as my readers, I trust that you'll keep this to yourself, and you don't have to mention a word about it. I just want to show you, that he and I, our stories goes way back. Way back. Perhaps if he writes about me, maybe you'll know more about me.

Oops, I'm straying off again. Well, Matthew is a on-site manager. He specializes in one thing; estimating and managing resources and materials on-site (construction). This goal of his, strayed off his original intention to be an internal design specialist, but I guess he may have a change of heart. But as far as I'm concerned, he likes it. He likes what he is now. He has time to serve God, and he has the time to serve the people. God bless his soul. Halleluyah, Amen. May God bestow the bounties of this world and the world thereafter to him.

Wongey may not seem like it, but in him there's ingeniuty. A pure genius. You see, his ingeniuty does not come from pure cognitive processing capabilities. It is reinforced, enhanced with his vision and his soul's purity. What sort of purity? His intent. His intent, is always, questionably good. I use the word "questionably" because some people will misconstrue his gestures, but he has everyone in his heart.

I remember my father once said that people like Matthew can be dangerous. They can remain pure, and then suddenly, if something can go wrong, they'll snap. And be very wicked people they be. But Matthew, has always (and I pray that he will always be) the idealistic Matthew who aims for the sky while literally flying on a rocket. I am sure that you can work out the drift. I'm not trying to be cryptic nor metaphorical. I'm just being.. me.

Oh well, I guess that is about Matthew, with lack of depth, and lack of maturity. I mean, my writing piece of course. But I think it is more than sufficient for you to see Wongey in the same way I do. Perhaps. We shall see.

Well, I'm off. I want to play. =)

See you all soon.

Monday, 3 March 2008

Happy Fasting

Its the month of fasting again in the Baha'i calender.

Its the 2nd day of fasting, and everything seems going well, except for my lack of caffeine fix which I think I'll appreciate it.

But then, when the fasting month approaches, it is also the month for me to "reset" myself.
Yeah.

So what's your resolution?

Happy fasting though.

and to everyone; please pray for unc Liu Man San & aunty Doreen Lim. They're facing the roughest of times, and even I can't help them if I wanted to.

Such ungrateful brat I am.

Monday, 25 February 2008

a simple solution a very nasty virus

While looking for a cure for a particular virus, I stumbled upon this site which describes the entire virus (how it works) in detailed fashion.

I may not necessarily be a computer tech junkie (as how I hoped to be), but the way it was written was good enough to make me understand that how certain things work, and how the virus takes advantage of these executions.

Kudos, and thank you very much to http://www.en.mygeekside.com/?cat=8

Just in case you were thinking what virus I'm talking about, just head there. Its a pretty common virus with a very nasty side effect.

Thank him, don't thank me. Thank God that there are actually people who will fight these viruses on their own initiative.

Tuesday, 19 February 2008

a comparison to saurfang.

Today an anonymous sent me a message written on my notepad (but I was sure it wasn't my classmates)

"When Badi debates, he floats like a butterfly and stings like a mach 3 missile with MIRVs."

Okay, I know that used to be a Saurfang fact, which derived itself from Chuck Norris facts. But I guess its kinda fun when Badi has a "fact".

Haha. A small joke that made my day.

Friday, 8 February 2008

A loner's path

Something struck me while I was eating with my extended family (with my uncle and his extended family) for chinese new year buffet (in his mother in law's house). Yes, being a chinese somewhat allows a huge family community to be connected. Its the essence of what it means to be a chinese; the idea of a communal livelihood that extends not only to the immediate nuclei family, but as well to the extended family and the communal family.

The idea of having large extended family, having to meet each other; it allows a somewhat lopsided version of a small "country" by itself. It is a form of a community support system that has been brought down, the idealogy passed for generations after generations, especially in immigrant based communities like my late grand parents'. So every now and then, whenever we have a really huge festival for Chinese New Year, its always back to the basics; visit the elder's house, everyone gathers and camps for the day.

With the rise of individualism and materialism, these core values that many of us (we're spesifically talking about children of the 2nd, 3rd and subsequently 4th generation) are now conveniently forgetting. Its sunk; eroded by the values and commonalities of the modern era. Not that I'll attribute myself being allowed to be sucked into upholding the latter culture; I myself had allowed myself to lead myself to a big hole unknowingly all the while. Yet, it is a battle on my side that I'll have to fight on my own; to be comfortable with masses of people who I'll be linked to as extended families of sort.

Nowadays, in the past recent 2-3 years; I admit that I myself don't go back to either my father's side or my more endeared mother's side of the family. (Maternal) However, the fact that I don't return to my mother's side will eventually have a side effect; I wil definitely return to a culture and a subculture of new; or evolved values where I'll find myself definitely shocked and awed: That's what isolation for years makes me; an indifferent individual who's shrouded with a stench of individualism.

No, I'm not saying individualism is bad; there must always be a balance of individualism and collectivism; a balance is always necessary.

But when complete individualism takes precedence over core communal factors, its time to revise our tracks and our destination in life.

Wednesday, 6 February 2008

This is one of those moments that I listen to Andy Hunter-Go (yes, its the infamous scene of Ghost vs Trinity while Ghost in the game "Enter The Matrix").

The same song always remind me of the late Richard Burns in his games "Richard Burns Rally".

Well enough of the QQ-ing, let's move on with what we have in store for today.

I'll be away for a rough approximation of 24 hours, totally uncontact-able, unreachable by any means because I'll be away in the sea, where not even satellites can reach me, at least not with my Nokia s60. Yes, I'm still using that EDGE phone if you wonder. But this time I won't be losing track of time, I have my Seiko watch with me to accompany me ( so I don't have to really depend on my now starting to get defunct Nokia phone. Not that its bad, its pretty good because it survived my rough treatment.

Now the countdown begins.

Saturday, 2 February 2008

The Old Choo Choo Train.

Im waiting down the aisle
For a friend and a train.
It never arrives on time,
It never leaves on time.

With Technology and Modernity
Punctuality equates only to Economy
civic mindness and courtesy forgotten,
Just like this train, gone in an era.

A sense of time reverse,
I feel it, it reverses back,
I went back in time, I really did,
Like they say, "Good ole' train times"

The train chugs slowly,
passing by the greens and the hills,
I wonder if my predecessors,
travelled the same way I did?

An old woman sighed,
"Train's never early, since 1964"
I gave her a look,
and she smiled at me; "yes boy, its true".

A man in his middle 30s pointed out,
There used to be sellers and peddlers,
Right by every station, nasi lemak and air bendung,
But now they're gone, "modern rules, so they say."

Morning in Kluang, but no time for coffee,
Noon in Ipoh, but no time for coffee,
Evening in Taiping, but no time for a kuih,
Night in Butterworth, but the train's end at the stop.

Sometimes I wonder, I do ponder,
In a train I talk and I chat,
But in a SUPER VIP bus, modern and technological,
The human touch is lost, deprived in "privacy".

I sit and talk with others in the train,
a grandfather with three cicits,
all happy and excited on their first train trip,
I sit and play along with them.

I see a youth in his teens,
absorbed in his own little laptop game,
Not bothered with the destination,
He's absorbed, in his own little world.

We all yearn to reach our own hometown,
"Balik kampung lah!" everyone says,
Once the train stops on their tracks,
One by one I whisk them goodbye.

But when we all reach our place,
Butterworth here I stay,
Everyone departs, leaves and say "Bye"
and the time snaps back to present.


2nd January, 2008.

Friday, 4 January 2008

New Year, New deal.

Hello everyone, and Allah'u'Abha.

College resumed at 26th of December, 2007 and suffice to say nontheless, the first 2 weeks itself was more than hectic.

Today itself I will have to make sure that a certain lecturer has already received my assignment, or else I would lose 20% marks for one of my subjects which I took last year. Apparently, it seems that my plight has not been unnoticed by the higher echelons among the lecturers, but due to the policy of non intervention, Im not allowed to change tutors (since the said lecturer will still need to have students to supervise for the position paper as well as the research paper).

Well anyways, for January 2, there was a good question that popped up. To cut a long story short, we were introduced with a story how Plato defined a human as a creature with 2 legs with no furs and feet. And the next thing we all know, Plato's students came up with a featherless chicken and told him "this is your human".

Definition is important.

But then, it raises a very good question, what is a human, and what defines the human spirit? How do you define "human" and "human spirit"?
(Will post a follow up post on this)

On January 3, I was supposed to write something about Blogging as a Theraphy (especially for me), but again at least let me make a post stating it first, so it can act as a reminder. Better than nothing.


Today's January 4, and its 9.15a.m, and im now inside a class, task is to look at CALL (Computer Assisted Language Learning). Its not entirely a new concept, and neither is it an old one either. Just that when you look at the development of technologies, there isn't much breakthrough in "trunk", but rather in "branches" of the tree in regards to CALL. Nevertheless, a development is still development, and in this case we're looking exactly at how technology enhances CALL.

But then, the key point's still there, that is technology is a tool for us to (ab)use to suit the neeeds and to benefit everyone.

But meh, time's running out soon, and again, a happy new year, look alive, stay sharp, its just business as usual. Keep your spirits up. Thank you, everyone.